May 1st, 2003
can I PLEASE get a break?!?!?!?!
goodness gracious am I being tested right now . . .
there are SOO many problems and I'm going through so much it's driving me insane. But I must say that those who have helped me are my saviors. Laura cheers me up every chance she gets, she and Marley left THE NICEST messages on my last entry....so nice I got watery eye syndrome! Lacey, Laura, Tyrone, Chuck, and Allen all make me smile when that's the last thing I want to do, and Melissa came over today and listened to me talk about all the 2075029384093284 problems I have right now and it helped soooo much. Then I bought a mountain dew and I'm listening to my husband sing me songs
(Brandon Boyd duh)
I'm really sick right now, and I think part of it might be because I've been bottling up everything. I don't ever let it out....and I think it got to the point my body took the brunt of it. But I don't like people worrying or listening to my problems. I always feel so selfish because I know that THEY have problems and I know that sooo many people have worse problems than me. But tonight helped a lot, and I feel much better, tho not perfectly fine.
I'm gonna try to go home soon, I need to be at home, take baths surrounded by candles while listening to Ben Folds Five, take Taz and Belle to the park, drive around in my F150 blaring Led Zeppelin and 50 Cent, and clean and do dishes. Oddly enough cleaning helps me.....I guess that's good? I just wanna see my parents ....and my Daddy's birthday is the 6th, I wanna be there for it, esp. since I left on my mom's birthday. I need to be selfish for a couple days...so that's what I'm going to do. Thank you to everyone I mentioned above
I love you guys, you don't know how much! (and also Melinda, Larry, Jessica, and Tisha!)
wish me luck,
Kat
there are SOO many problems and I'm going through so much it's driving me insane. But I must say that those who have helped me are my saviors. Laura cheers me up every chance she gets, she and Marley left THE NICEST messages on my last entry....so nice I got watery eye syndrome! Lacey, Laura, Tyrone, Chuck, and Allen all make me smile when that's the last thing I want to do, and Melissa came over today and listened to me talk about all the 2075029384093284 problems I have right now and it helped soooo much. Then I bought a mountain dew and I'm listening to my husband sing me songs
(Brandon Boyd duh)I'm really sick right now, and I think part of it might be because I've been bottling up everything. I don't ever let it out....and I think it got to the point my body took the brunt of it. But I don't like people worrying or listening to my problems. I always feel so selfish because I know that THEY have problems and I know that sooo many people have worse problems than me. But tonight helped a lot, and I feel much better, tho not perfectly fine.
I'm gonna try to go home soon, I need to be at home, take baths surrounded by candles while listening to Ben Folds Five, take Taz and Belle to the park, drive around in my F150 blaring Led Zeppelin and 50 Cent, and clean and do dishes. Oddly enough cleaning helps me.....I guess that's good? I just wanna see my parents ....and my Daddy's birthday is the 6th, I wanna be there for it, esp. since I left on my mom's birthday. I need to be selfish for a couple days...so that's what I'm going to do. Thank you to everyone I mentioned above
I love you guys, you don't know how much! (and also Melinda, Larry, Jessica, and Tisha!)wish me luck,
Kat
Posted by flutterbykat at 07:52 PM | holler back

I got bad news about her....and then my poor mom couldn't eat and was having severe stomach pains so I took her to the hospital. I sat in THE MOST UNCOMFORTABLE chair EVER for about 7 hours straight....she's ok, she needs some more tests run on her but it's nothing serious (thank God). 