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Ok you might have to prepare yourself for this entry. . . . I'm going to write it stream of conciously..orwhatever you call that but I know it's going to be long and contain happy and sad crap. Ok here goes:

As most of you know, Friday I was informed that my Grandma Rahe had a massive stroke and would not survive the night. She did die. That was the first major family death and funeral I've ever attended. I went to a police officer's funeral once, which I cried at because I was scared of my parents being on the force...but that was so different. The night she died I had a dream.

I dreamt that I was somewhere with TONS of people....Carowinds came to mind, though all I saw in the dream was the bathroom, but the line was HUGE and it was so crowded. I saw Grandma in there, she had on earrings, her oxygen tube wasn't on, and I gave her the biggest hug in the world. Afterwards I just kinda looked at her, with a sadness in my eyes and she just smiled back. She smiled a beautiful smile and said " it's okay, it's okay...I have to go . . . " and walked away.

That was so comforting and after crying myself to sleep I woke up with a sense of relief. I told my parents and sister about the dream and my dad almost cried, I could see it in his eyes. My sister looked at me and said "I miss her." and her eyes were so sad....I've never seen that look in her before. This was all new to me. It's hard seeing your dad cry

Grandpa looked so sad. When I told him the dream his eyes welled up, he took a sip of his beer to keep from crying and said "that is so meaningful" I'm glad I had that dream

Anyway....my grandma was awesome. She has paintings hung up in places everywhere in Circleville, Ohio. Banks, McDonald's, Chuches, etc. She won first place in every art contest ever, she quilted or crocheted a blanket for each relative, organized an entire Rahe reunion every three years, and NEVER NEVER bragged or complained about any of it. I learned at the funeral that she drew a picture of the Church (that the service was at) because they were low on funds and what not. The pictures were sold at $100 each and my Grandma's art raised $10,000 for the Church and the community. Again, she NEVER bragged about it. I broke down (finally) at the funeral.....it was so embarrassing because it was so quiet in there....but at least I got it out.

So then we all hung out at Grandpa's for a couple days because he was doing kinda bad. We had to teach him how to cook because in Estonia the men don't have to cook...his mom did then Grandma did, so we helped him out. It was sad But we had fun, and he's doing better.

We got home last night kinda late and unloaded everything. Grandma sewed and knew how to do everything...she had so much equipment left over and it was all given to Hillary because she sews. Her car was LOADED with Grandma's things and she drove to Boone at about 9pm last night.

At 9:41 I looked at the clock and my heart hurt. Bad. I knew something was wrong....but then I went to take a bath (so NOT relaxing...) I come downstairs and I heard commotion and Mommy said " Hillary was in a wreck" I freaked out...I was having a hard time breathing.

What happened was she hit black ice, fishtailed, then when she hit dry pavement her car went airborne. It went over the guard rail, she flipped 6 times down a 40foot steep hill and landed on her side next to a creek. Her car is totalled. She is sooo lu cky to be alive. She walked away with a concussion, bad bruises and some scrapes from glass. I can only imagine though, I thought my wreck was scary but I'm sure she's gonna have a hard time getting over that. I hope she's okay mentally after that poor HIllary . . . I was so scared I lost her and I cried all last night. Needless to say I'm so tired. She's okay though and that's all that matters.

Here's what's weird though - Nothing of Grandma's was ruined. Her sewing machine still works, all the sewing and quilting equipment is there....I do believe my Grandma was there with her last night.
Another thing is that her boyfriend, Charlie, lost his phone a week ago. That means it has been on for a week. When she hit the ground the phone popped out of the car and landed near her. It worked and htat's how she called us and the police.....I've never believed in any of this kind of stuff until recently. She's so blessed Charlie's taking care of her now up in Boone and she'll be ok.

So I left Boone today and met my parents for dinner in Hickory, which was sad because I didn't want to leave. I want nothing more than to be home right now. But After 3 hours of driving my car overheated. It continued to after I added anti-freeze and eventually stalled on 40 at the Elon exit. It's at the shop now

Hopefully that was the last thing....they say bad things happen in threes and I pray that it's all done. I can't take any more. My emotions are so raw and I feel physically exhausted.....I think we're going to put Taz down soon. She's not doing so well

I'm sorry that was so long, but it's easier to write it all than explain it to people a lot of times. That was the worst 6 days of my life. It was also good though because my sister is alive, and the entire Rahe family was brought together for 3 days.

So now I have tons and tons of catching up to do....and I hope to start smiling again soon . . .

much love,
Katrin

Ok well first of all I wanted to add something I forgot - I was in my lowest temperature in Ohio. It was -5 degrees one day - WHOA. I'm definitely moving to the beach

Also, my sister's ok, I haven't talked to her but she's slept all day which is waht she needed to do

My car should be out of the shop before next tuesday or wednesday which is awesome.

Things are slowly getting better...it's still really rough right now but you guys are so awesome for helping me out I wish I could repay you....I want to buy flowers for everyone or something...I dont really have any money or time right now but I promise I'll make it up to you. I wanna thank some of you:

Laura - Thank you SOOO much for coming to get me when my car was stalled. She drove almost all the way to greensboro for me!!! That way I didn't have to ride with the scary tow truck man, he was mean. I lov eyou laura!

Mark & Pickle & Jesse - thank you for calling me, you rock!

Tyrone and Allen - They just picked me up, gave me great hugs, made me laugh, and took me all the way to the c store and back!!!!

HObday- driving me to work and being such an awesome fun friend!

Everyone else that sent me IMs or helped me out, thank you sooo much

Oh and at a rest stop (travel plaza) in...Ohio or West Virginia, I forget....this dude that worked at Starbucks hit on me! Although he was kinda scary it was so cheerful b/c I looked hideous thank you random starbucks worker!



I was to the point where I was going to drop this semester and just wwork and make some money...I'm still having a rough time financially but I'm hoping 2 jobs will help that and that ONE FREAKIN DAY my FREAKIN check will come in OR that I'll get another credit hour b/c I only have 11 right now and it's scary. Just please keep my family in your prayers/thoughts . . . I'm so worried about all of them.

Unfortunately I think I'm getting sick right now....the serious lack of sleep plus the intensity of emotions lately has really worn me out, but I WILL get better before the morning! I WILL! Although I feel like I'm being strangled, I hope to wake up with my voice back and what not

I also have 2 jobs now You shoudl come visit me and E-beth at Sam Ash! You can play osme instruments and shop around, it's a really cool store!

Thank you everyone for putting a smile on my face

I love you!

so hey what's shakin?

It was a good weekend After I almost died (ok I didn't really almost die...but I sure as heck felt like I was going to) from being sick on Friday ( that was AWFUL), I worked on saturday then hung out w/E-beth, which is always fun! She's such a blast to be around

So then I worked at the cinema with Sexy Meghan, which was real fun. Tisha came over and we played mariokart, the new kind w/the 2 people or whatever and it was SO fun!!! Too bad I was still feeling kinda sick so I didn't have as much fun as I wanted to later when we all went to wal mart.

Tisha and Meghan came over and we had girl talk for a while which was a blast! Then Tyrone and Pickle came over at some ridiculous hour in the morning, we watched some D, then MELINDAFICATION came over too and we all watched Ben Folds Five! YAY! That wa sthe best night ever! And now Tyrone wants some Ben Folds FIve!

Today I slept in till forever for the first time in about 7 years. . . then Melinda and I ate at Clark which was fine dining as usual. After that I worked at the cinema for a good 2 hours or so, and came back here and made 2 grrrrrrreat CDs. I was so hyper I was dancing around in my room....I really need to go to the club soon. Too bad I have no money ever

Hillary is doing very well She went home this weekend with Charlie and they hung out w/the rents. That is SO presh! I can't wait till my cousin Zach gets married this April, . . . he is one of my favorite cousins and his fiance is awesome! We're all gonna get drunk and dance all night, I can't wait!

So I'm in a really good mood...but I have to go to bed at some point otherwise I'm gonna be a zombie tomorrow. I hope you all have a terrific monday

much love,
K*Rah

so I have 2 jobs now, therefore I'm too busy to update as often adn too busy to even remember what I did today . . .

but

let me say that I just got back from E-beth's, we watched Return to Oz and that movie was FREAKY!!!!!!!!!! You shoudl watch it....I plan to read the books b/c there's some deep stuff in that movie....WEIRDED OUT

But uuuh I work at the cinema tomorrow so you shoudl come visit me readyyyyyyyyyyy go!

OH! and I was there for the " gary strip tease!" I feel like I was a part of NC State history...*tear*

and the chick that sued me is claiming injuries on her daughter now

I = mad/upset/frustrated/sad/angry at that.....

ok I have to sleep, I have a hard day of weightlifting, tuba-ing, and popcorn-making tomorrow

g'night,
Kat

p.s.- pray for Jesse's dad!

Hello friend!

Nothing exciting ever happens now b/c I work always....so instead I'm going to discuss Valentine's day . . . .

To all of you single folk, don't despair! Take it from someone who's never had a real valentine (yes, it's sad I know)....don't let it get you down! It sucks, yes, and the holiday has turned into a " let's make fun of or hook up the single people we know" day. But instead of hating everyone you shoudl be glad you don't have a boyfriend/girlfriend nagging at you about Saturday's plans, and go to a party/club and THROW DOWN!

Thanks to Meghan for the idea: I will now seduce you here I go . . .

I wonder if people think I'm dumb b/c I always say shoudl woudl and coudl.......hahahhaah

ok so I'm so busy nowadays......let's try and recap some things:

first of all: HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALLEN AND TYRONE!!!!

I saw them for a hot minute on their birthday because I had to work ( like always...ROAR!) but it was so presh, I was all teared up! I'm gonna be so sad when we all grow up and have to leave each other....but until then - I'll drink to that! (haha...)

Last night was 80s night at the cinema and it was SO fun!!!! We showed episodes of like Thundercats, the Smurfs, Saved by the Bell, etc....it was grrrrreat! The UAB gave us a bunch of candy so I was high on sugar all night, and there were old school posters everywhere, like carebears(!), dirty dancing, garbage pail kids, etc.

BUT the funniest thing EVERRRR happened. So this dude "Justin" was hangin around saying he was waiting for his friend "Julius" and said he was #44 on the basketball team but he's red-shirted.....I was skeptical at first but I don't claim to know the entire team so I was like whatev.....

so....if any of you know me, you know I'm in love with Will Roach....this guy said he knew him and he's having a 4kegger tomorrow(as in today/friday...)and will will (haha) be there. But even after I declared my love for Will Roach this dude kept hittin on me! He was sayin how his girlfriend of 4 years was cheating on him w/his 2 best friends and when he found out he beat the dudes up and was in jail for a month until ....get this....Herb Sendeck got him out of jail!

He kept mentioning his " 350Z" and blah blah blah....and talked about their " trianing' and how at the FSU game he went up to dunk and this dude's elbow hit his knee and he was injured and i'ts in the paper and it was on TV

So like I said, I don't know about all the team or whatever but I consulted the internet and some friends and it turns out there's no #44...unless he has his own special webpage hahahha

that's so ridiculous! I mean, i was flattered but really.....making up jail stories and saying you're on the basketball team?!?!?
please

I was quite entertained

I saw Danielle yesterday!!! It was SO nice to see her!!! I <3 you! I also met Nick Loring's girlfriend and she's a peach! I miss Nick *tear*

I thought I had more things to say but I guess not....I don't have to work today though!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm gonna go pick up my paycheck and see what's shakin tonight

much love,
Kat

p.s. - I'm going home the weekend after next! YAY!!!!!!

so hey! This weekend consisted mainly of work - I am sooooooooooooooooooooo beat! I haven't got a decent night's sleep in so long - it sucks! I'm one of those people taht needs sleep, y'know?

I reckon it's my fault tho - b/c I got out and hang out at like never o'clock in the morning

BUT - first of all I forgot to describe my outfit on 80s night - I had on a miniskirt with tennis shoes and bunched up socks, and an off the shoulder shirt and a side ponytail - HAHAHAH it was sooooo much fun

I got to see Lacey and Travis and Larry and Matt the other day . . . it had been so long! We played spades and what not, and it was fun as always I miss them!!!

Friday night I went over to visit Meghan, and Steven and Tisha were there - and Mike S. came over. We had a blast! We played mariokart, watched the Tenacious D....VD, went to McDonald's, etc. etc. It was awesome

And last night I drove over to Chapel Hill w/Pickle to see Mates of State. My first Indie experience......it was actually a really good show, I enjoyed it. The crowd was kinda weird, just not what I'm used to. I got to see Hemingway and Mary though!!!! They're my sister's friends from Boone, and I <3 them!

Afterwards, I had to get my car towed....again, and Melinda borrowed Katie's car and drove me and Hemingway and Pickle back here...THANK YOU!!!!!!!!! It's so great having friends that are THAT nice.....I'm so blasted lucky But we all hung out and I faded at about 5am...it was nice to chill w/Hemmi tho, he's great

THe tow truck dude was SUCH an a$$hole....he was dumb and rude and just a jerk. I HATE peopple like that....I had finally got over the stress of having even more car problems and he put me back in a bad mood. If you hate your job that much, QUIT! Seriously.....don't take it out on the customer. I get yelled at sooo much at work and I smile and treat them so nice - sometimes people suck a lot and it makes me sad :-/

Hopefully my car has hope...I really can't be without a car right now, I HAVE to work...I need the money. cross your fingers!

I saw the " basketball player" today at the game (good game!) and tyrone was like " HEY!! #44!!" It was hilarious, that guy loses but tyrone rocks my socks

So tonight I'm going to bed early, hopefully before 10, I really can't even think straight I'm so tired. yay sleep!

hope you all have an awesome monday
~Rah Rah

so hey! it's very early in the morning, b/c for the last two nights, I actually got sleep! YAY!

my car, I've decided, can go small trips, like to work and e'eythang, but it can't go on big trips or it will be OVERHEAT'D!!

in other news.....last night I got home from work (ajw49e8gt7ya9pwe84 freakinay work) - it was a stinky day at work .....and Erin and Montal were drunk! I was like " whoa, what are your plans? it's monday!" but then I realized they were drinking SoCo and I coudl drink b/c all I have this morning is gym

so I took five shots.....and let me tell you...I was GONE! Quite possibly the most gonest I've ever been - I was seein double man...it was crazy! So then EVERYBODY came over, Erin's friends AND mine, and I feel soooo bad, but I went and passed out. I remember tyrone coming up to see if I was asleep or something and all I coudl do was laugh

don't worry...that's not a regular monday night ritual, but I HAD to see what all the hub bub was about w/the soco

to all my friends - I owe you a good hangage outage later

I think I'm getting a tattoo this weekend! Meghan's designing it

much love,
K*Rah

ok, first of all I need to get to sleep earlier...what are my plans?!?

but also, I've decided I'm going to give up sweets for Lent this year. I did it a couple years ago, senior year maybe? and it was SO hard...but I did it! You can "cheat" on sundays, but I try not to do it then either...we'll see I did decide, however, that sweets doesn't include yogurt, unfrosted pop tars, and nutri grain bars. I reckon it shoudl include pop but not juice drinks. WOO! I love a challenge

Meghan designed a tattoo for me and I LOVE it! I'm thinkin that's gonna happen this weekend w00t

HAPPY BIRHTDAY JON WILSON!!!

that is all I have to say
come to the cinema thurs. and visit!

okbye
~Katrin