¡Bienvenido!

the people that get Zoolander and the people that don't.

That movie is freakin HILARIOUS but then I talk to some people and I'll start explaining the jokes and their like " Katrin, please" So I don't know, it's interesting

Anywayy - I'm happy, I've started running again and I feel 2309478023948 percent better. I'm definitely a person that needs exercise and sleep...whcih we all do, but there are some that can live without...but it's definitely making me happier to have a release. I've also started working my upper body for the SOUSA LINE boo-yah.


I'm staying here for the summer - BAM decision! I would just like to say that I love my family....so SO much, more than ANYTHING. That is all I have to say. (and yes, that includes my dogs and if you think that's dumb or ridiculous, you can ____insert mean comment_____)

Ok so I'm gonna try to get a 2nd job at Starbucks, 1. I need the money. 2. I want to work at Starbucks - BAD...I think all of you know that so cross your fingers for me! w00t

Uh I guess that's it..Summer's good, I <3 warm weather it makes me smile. But, I do miss everyone and I miss the routine of school and all that jazz.

What a weird journal entry

I'm gonna go now


bye....

eye <3 ewe
~Katrin

so check it : this entry's gonna be REALLY long so that's just a warning for you...I have many items of business to discuss.

First of all, the Gillette Sensor 3 razor (for women) just gave me the best shave of my life....my legs feel like silk! w00t

Charlie(my sister's boyfriend) asked my father for permission to marry HIllary (AAH!)) (I SO saw that coming by the way...) I'm so happy for her! THey're gonna be awesome together, he's a good man - I approve.....But at the same time I'm weirded out - my sister's gonna get married! WHOA....but a wedding is gonna be a BLAST! What sucks htough is now the pressure's on 20938434 times more for me...my dad said " if all else fails you can always be a lesbian....just letting you know your options" hahhaha...of course he was kidding, but it does seem as if it's getting to that point, doesn't it?

. . . . which brings me to my next point- Even though I've been single for about 99.8% of my life, it's good, and lately I haven't been seing that because all around me are marriages, relationships, etc. etc. Not to mention the pressure from all sides of my family. Even though Grandpa Rahe said he doesn't think I'm " ready" for a boyfriend yet ....yeah...that made it a lot better (yikes). The point is, if I died right now, I would be so disappointed that I'm stressing out about such shallow things. I've had so many major problems lately in life that I bottle up inside and won't share with anyone (mainly due to the fact that a lot of it needs to be secret), but I still manage to stress about weight, guys, zits, etc. Which is part of growing up but even so - it's unnecessary stress and if I complain about it to you - you have permission to slap me in the face. But hey, maybe it distracts me from what's REALLY stressing me out....but regardless...that's not healthy either. ajrwp9ogu7yaepw9o!

Ok, so my next item of business - love. A friend of mine at work recently went crazy at me because I was talking about Wubby (my old cat........) and it's emotions and etc. Anyway, he was saying that animals don't have emotions and what not. THe dude won't even name his fish b/c he doesn't think of them as " pets" My point is that love is love, why restrict it to only humans? I love the sun, I love the ocean, I love my car, and I DEFINITELY love my pets. A lot, they're part of the family! And for this guy to tell me basically not to love them....I almost blew a gasket! THe nerve...

Friends. Friends come and go, it's funny really. This summer's definitely a summer of growing pains, stress...Lord knows there's a lot of stress, but at the same time I feel good about it all. I feel like I'm maturing at a rapid rate b/c I hang out w/people so much older than me. Which kinda sucks b/c I often get treated like a kid...yes...a kid, they even call me kid (by the way, NEVER call me kid - I'll stab you), but it's nice to know that all this pain/stress/etc. is all adding to my wisdom and experience. Mind you, at the same time I'm having fun - it's just definitely an intense summer and it's making me do things like make decisions, stand up for myself, tell people off ( imagine that....) ....a.k.a things I normally avoid.

Ok back to point #whatever - the relationship section - I get concerned about my future boyfriend sometimes ( whomever he may be) because I've become so accustomed to my single life. I do what I want, when I want, however I want (aaah, the joys of being single...but yeahthat's just a thought.

Hmm....what else what else. I think I'm gonna aska friend who has a huge a$$ farmish type house if I can use it for my 20th birthday party. It's August 20th - a friday! (which means my 21st b-day's gonna be on a saturday - ya heard!) But turning 20 on the 20th definitely calls for a celebration. So we'll see.

Oh I was thinking today in my car that maybe what I need to do in life is some sort of counseling. All my life I've attracted people with baggage and they come to me because I'll listen, which I enjoy, I hope I always make them feel better. But the moral of the story is that when I see kids, and by kids I mean like middle schoolers and what not, I want to talk to them. I always want to hug them and tell them how awesome they are because I know how rough it is to grow up and not be one of the 'cool' kids or the 'rich' kids' or whatever. That's not to say that those kids have it easy....but I was just thinking that to have a positive influence (outside of the parents, b/c as we all know, we don't always believe our parents), in life at that age is sooo important. I was thinking about Youth group but I don't know....first of all, organized religion has the tendency to tick me off lately (that's a WHOLE 'nother entry right there)...but also, I had such a bad experience with youth group. I went to the richest nicest church, and I was at the peak of my Christian life and was LOVING it, but had no one to share it with. All the kids there had known each other and grown up with each other and were so meanto me b/c I was the weird one. I'll have to develop this thought further and figure out where it takes me.

I'd talk about money but I HATE it. (insert tounge stickage outage here)

I think that's about it. Please comment, I'd love to hear some feedback - and also I'd love ot hear from people I havne't heard from in forever!

g'night all!
~Katrin

I had a good night last night and a pretty good day today, but then I had a bad evening....

but!

Then I went to " girls' night" with Katie Williams and Lindsay and Heidi and Ashley and Tory(sp?)and it was so fun! I just made it to the sit around and talk time, but it was awesome. First of all I missed all you guys and it was nice to see you! But also - I needed friends to talk to and they helped a lot. So instead of staying home and watchin TV and having " contemplative time" I was cheered up and now I'm gonna chill and have " happy contemplative time" I lit some nag and my well-being candle and I'm gonna listen to some good music, read a good book, and maybe write a few good things. And enjoy this alone time b/c it rocks and I haven't been appreciating it lately

I need to practice my sousa.

g'night!

call me folks
~Katrin