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Hello all - how are things?

 

Sooooo I put in my 2 weeks notice at Starbucks Sun......I FINALLY decided to just work at Sam Ash.....I'm such a flake!  I'm happy with my decision though ( which is good b/c if I weren't It'd be another 5-6 months before I coudl decide how to resolve it)

 

My spring break was specTACular!!!   I went home and relaxed and had family time and FINALLY got some Hillary time!!!  (that's my sister)   I miss her so so so much - she's my best friend in the universe and it's so nice when I can hang out w/just her.   

 

mmm....ihop - anyone up for it????   no takers....

 you see it's because I don't have to work tomorrow OR thursday!!!  Well I have to cover a 3 hour shift tomorrow afternoon but that's definitley not 5:30 in the morning CAN I get a witness

 

In other news today was a fun day (b/c it's a fun week) but it was also a hard day....I had a few deep arguments (even about religion) among other events that made it THAT much harder to have a super monday for the week to follow

 

oh well....I love all of you and my room is really dirty and I do'nt have to get up until 10:45am



Kat

if you didn't notice I don't know how to do computer things a.k.a my tabulas is wayless excitingthan everyone elses 

Hello children!

 
Well Monday was the first day of SPRING and may I just be the first to say right on!

I Love spring so much it's so gorgeous and cheerful and warm and sunny and makes me smile   

Also there was a crow on my back railing yesterday morning RIGHt when I woke up....if I recall correctly (from my just woken-up slumber...) he was cleaning himself.   An omen?  I hope not

 Well I left Starbucks.....I miss it but I'm happy with my decision. 

In other news I can't believe E-beth is actually leaving!   It's crazy to think that Thursday is the last day I'll see her for at least 6 months....

which brings me on the topic of how come all my good or best friends in life (this doesn't apply to E-beth)  leave me - my best friend in elementary school and I were keeping in touch after we " graduated" by mail and one day she said she wouldn't be able to write me anymore because she " rean out of stamps."  My best friend in high school and I stopped talking senior year and to this day I still can't figure out why.  My next 'good' friend also no longer talks to me......I wonder why.....

I was also wondering why people are so serious sometimes.....I facebook messaged this one dude who was my first crush ever (once I admitted that I liked guys in 4th grade)....no girl forgets her first crush!   He definitely ignored me.....it just kills me sometimes how people take life so seriously - it's not like I was messaging him because I'm in love and want him to father my children and for that all I have to say is

PLEASE!

 Other than that life is grand  -  ESPECIALLY now that i only have one job.....that was ridiculous, let me tell you


I'm very excited about going to Boone this weekend to see Hillary


I'm contemplative tonight maybe I'll update again later with more thoughts


much love,

Katrin

 

 

 

I hate it when you're in a good mood then it gets ruined

 

I was in SUCH a good mood - it's such a gorgeous spring day! - I woke up early, got my internet fixed, went on a quick (but awesome) 45min. hike in umstead, then went to lunch in my cheerful exciting skirt that I tye-dyed myself

BUT . . . then I got lectured YET AGAIN about my GPA.  I swear if people knew the punishment I give my own self as far as guilt and regret they wouldn't lecture me.   Then at lunch someone was in a bad mood and it rubbed off, someone else snapped at me, it was just bad and now my good mood is ruined.....

I hate how sensitive I am that one person snapping at me can ruin my day, I hate how I can't stand up to people, and I hate how I'm so f*d up emotionally that every single time a good guy finally comes around and asks me out I for some reason can't do it then they end up in another happy relationship that I have to stare at every day and wonder why I can't have one....I don't know what's wrong but I think I need to get away from Raleigh for good.  What is there here for me?   I want to go to a different country - there's so much out there I haven't seen and here I am in Raleigh getting lectured about my GPA because I sit in classes that teach me nothing so I learn nothing so I fail the tests and blah blah blah the cycle continues

it's frustrating that you HAVE to have a college degree to get anywhere.  How are you supposed to try so hard for something you don't want - you just have to have? 

part of me wants to move home for a little bit like Hillary.  I love my family more than anything - they're always there for me no matter what...but I feel like there's no time for that.  Maybe if I moved home saved up tons and tons of $$ then travelled the world with the only person who understands me and listens to me - me.

*sigh*

so long, good mood . . . .

so chuck's comment (sorry to call you out chuck) is exactly why I never tell people what I'm thinking or feeling.  I always feel absurd guilty and ridiculous after I have an angry fit like that but I don't need somoene else telling me that what I feel isabsurd.  Seriously....that's why I never talk bout it.  so nevermind what I said in the last entry.  I would delete it but I've decided to not delete entries anymore - I used to delete entries like my last one after I wrote them b/c I'd be embarrassed and afraid someone would make a comment like chuck's, but I wanted to have what I was truly feeling out there....but I probably wont' do that anymore.......oh well

 

 anyway I was gonna say how other than the lunch hour ish time it was a splendid day!  It was gorgeous outside and lately I've been running into SO many people that I heart so much and haven't seen in forever - AND tonight I finally got to play pool at Lacey's which was a blast!  

tomorrow I go to Boone and I"m excited

 

okbye